I am beginning to feel better as the days wear on. For instance, I gave Patty’s truck to Dan recently. It seemed like the right thing to do. My big worry was my reaction during the giving process. I managed to hold myself together as we went through the paperwork. I really did not know how it would go. Our driveway now looks barren without the truck sitting there. Something else to get used to.
David is keeping the yard in good shape and I believe Patty would approve of the what he is doing. David is grieving the loss of his Mother and he tries to stay busy to avoid thinking too much. Not an easy thing to do when you are living in her house with the ever present reminders of her everywhere you turn. I am completely unable to do what I must eventually do to dispose of her belongings. I may never get there. It seems that everything in my present life is somehow connected to the events of our long marriage and my memories of these is painfully sharp. I think of our time together constantly and I continue to miss her very much. I would not have it any other way.